"I live in two worlds. One is a world of books. I've been a resident of Faulkner's Yoknapatawpha County, hunted the white whale aboard the Pequod, fought alongside Napoleon, sailed a raft with Huck and Jim, committed absurdities with Ignatius J. Reilly, rode a sad train with Anna Karenina, and strolled down Swann's Way. It's a rewarding world, but my second one is by far superior. My second one is populated with characters slightly less eccentric but supremely real, made of flesh and bone, full of love, who are my ultimate inspiration for everything." - Rory on Gilmore Girls, greatest graduation speech

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.~e.e. cummings

Tuesday
Woke up early because of the storm adn had to go pee. But I fell back asleep and woke up around 9:30. Watched videos (I like the Helena video by My Chemical Romance) and The View then it was time to drive Eric to his practice and my mom took me to Target. I got the All-American Rejects cd with a giftcard but Target doesn't have the best collection of cds. Borders does but it so expensive. I put off calling my dad all day because I was afraid he would be mad that he would have to pick up Eric and I but he was really good about it.
When Jim came home he started complaining about work and my mom started crying. She has been really emotion lately. She is looking for a part time job and she keeps getting turned down. My mom is really good in the arts but finding part time is going to be hard. She is narrowing herself. She wants to find something she like and it is just getting her down. She is drving me crazy. She uses Eric and I as an excuse to not look and then she wants hugs and starts to cry. I don't deal well with crying people. I know my mom had cancer and deserves in a way to not work full time but tons of people do, look at Lance Armstrong. She just annoys me.
My dad came around 6 and picked up pizza. We ate, he took a nap, while I chatted with Zach adn Ross online. Zach cracks me up. I miss a lot of people from school and Zach is one of them. I hope I get to see Kate tomorrow. I haven't seen her in over a month.
We went to English Gardens then to Borders. I got the new Meg Cabot book, Ready or Not: An All-American Girl. I am thinking about buying Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs. The O.C. Second Season comes out August 23 and Lost Season One comes out September 6. Eric and I made it clear to my dad we wanted to get him a nice gift for his birthday so we looked around the store and last night he saw one of the writers of some books that inspired The DaVinci Code on a tv show so we got him Holy Blood, Holy Grail and The Messianic Legacy. So we had fun walking around the store. I want to work at Borders while in college. It would really cool.
Went to Blockbuster. Eric bought some movies watching Elektra now.

Monday
Got up around 7:45 when my dad left. He was in a better mood. Watching Freaks and Geeks. Eric likes it too. Mom coming at 10:30. Mom was all clingy since we hadn't been with ehr in awhile so I couldn't hang out with anyone. Went to the bank and cashed a $40 check. My mom was asking for hugs and stuff. Driving me crazy. Eric and I kicked around a soccer ball in the back yard. It is the only time Eric will have a long conversation with me. We talked about school, friends, and the girls he likes. My shins kill though form trying to stop the ball with my legs. I should have worn shin gaurds. Next time I think I will.
I watched Laguna Beach quite a bit during the night. Wildfire of course. And started to watch The Dive From Clausen's Pier but it kind of sucked when she left her fiance who was in a wheelchair so I watched more of laguna and the new season was awesome. I like Lauren/Lc and Steven. Kristin had her good moments last season but she is annoying. Lauren I like because I can identify with being at a party and constantly looking at the guy you like. Steven is hot too. The new people are okay but I loved the first season.